God it's been ages since I updated this thing 0_o

Not really a lot to report either. Working in HMV for Xmas which is going well, here's hoping I get kept on cause I like Money!

Been made Xecutive Order's EU Xbox General. So that means I get to oversee our practices and I'm all moddy on the forums. Roll on the new 2010 gaming season!

Still with Paul. No plans for that to change ^_^

Xmas tree is up :D cat is loving it.

Always tired, i'd basically kill for a day off :(

No rest for the wicked!

September is an awkward month don't you think? Nothing amazing really happens in September, nothing to really plan for or look forward to other than the impending shit weather that Autumn and Winter will bring (Hey at least Scotland can get those months bang on the money right?)

I mean in October you have Halloween to plan for and then after that the Christmas thing suddenly pops up everywhere. Maybe I would feel different if I had a better full time job or even a full time job that allowed me to live a little instead of just paying my bills but I don't so I shall continue to moan. Unless something changes drastically in my circumstances, I am unimpressed with September.

Although there is one thing that I'm looking forward to - On the 19th of September it's Paul and I's one year anniversary. Maybe that can be my "September" thing?

Not a lot going on with me at the moment. Just back from Sunny Portugal and I'm now constantly freezing. Seriously. Was a little blue since I came back from Portugal on the Saturday night to discover than Paul had to go to England for 4 days on the Sunday morning. Was unimpressed but apparently his Mum and Dad gave him little choice in the matter. Balls.

 

I suddenly have even less respect for Benefit spongers.

It's been 2 weeks since I finished Uni and it's also been 2 weeks of relentless job hunting, sitting around watching TV box sets and generally sitting alone in my flat. Kim goes to work. Paul goes to work. Lindsay stays home.

Originally I had all these great plans for this time, that while those two were at work I would be a domestic goddess and keep the flat nice and tidy. I'd bake or cook nice things for them coming home and I'd go jogging every morning (Wii fit counts...it just does)

Sadly things have not worked this way. It did for the first week but as my mood has gone south I find myself lethargic, bored and sitting on the PC all day. Every day. I'm aware I could have people round but the sad fact is I don't WANT people round. People means I'd need to look presentable and so would my home and that takes effort that I just don't have.

I have however been spamming the cinema a lot with my unlimited card. I knew that would come into its element when I had too much free time.

I did have a fun weekend. Ended up going out to the Classic Grand with folk, Sarah and Ruth staying at mine after. It was fun but God I was suffering on Sunday. My manager Ruth was being a complete bitch the whole weekend. Seriously, Ruth, You're a sales manager in House of Fraser Glasgow, when it comes down to it you make no difference to the world around you SO shut up, fuck off and leave me in peace (Has everyone seen Wanted where he smashes his keyboard off a guys face? God If only!!)

It's all over!

Finished!

Done and Dusted!

The Fat Lady has Sung!

yup my exams are all finished and i'm registered for graduation, Class of 2009. Who would have thought I'd actually get to university, let alone graduating it. There you go kids, i'm a living example that you can still achieve something by putting in minimal effort!

So i'm now looking for a full time big person job. I have an interview for the Department of Work and Pensions (The benefits office to you and me) for a full time graduate post there which would be just great! Well paid, monday to friday job that will let me do some stuff and save up a bit. That's this Sunday (I know right? I was confused about Sunday too) and I hope it goes well. I'd like to keep my sitting on my ass time to a minimal.

No idea when I get my exam results but I hope its soon. I hate waiting for anything and since I'm anxious about these exams i'd like to see how I did asap. I already know I have one re-sit to do in the summer but the main thing is I'd like to keep it to the one re-sit. One I can deal with.

So other than job hunting i'm being a big Dork. I've finally got time to catch up on all my sci-fi/comic/game related fandoms. It's been fun-ish...I get bored easily....

So after two exams uni will be all over and done with. It's a shame actually because I never paused to really enjoy the student thing. I spent too much of my time hating it. I'm really ready to move into a full time job and think about what I actually want to do with myself.

For now though I'll settle with passing my last two exams. I personally don't see it happening but all I can do is cram like i've never crammed before and pray!  I'm looking for any kind of decent full time job for now, just to tide me over and pay off some things while I think about an actual career path. Obviously I want to do something I enjoy and that gives me a decent standard of living but for now I have plans this year that involve a full time wage.

I'm going on holiday with Sarah and want to have some serious spending money, I would like to afford to get a new (Or almost new) car. Also later on this year my Flat mate Kim is thinking of Moving out to live with her Boyfriend Barry. Obviously I want to stay in the same flat, I love this flat! Really what I would want it to have the money to refurnish the flat and really make it Paul and I's and just generally to give me a decent standard of living and not be sitting going "Oh I can't buy that magazine, it's a bit too expensive" or "I'll give the cinema a miss tonight, i'm a bit skint" etc

But still....exams first!

This is annoying.

I seem to have fallen back into a state of what can only be described as complete and utter indifference. Like I really am having a hard time caring about anything.

All I want to do is sit around, I don't go running anymore, I don't want to cook, I can't even be bothered cleaning or tidying. I don't know why, I just...can't be bothered. Uni work as well! The only reason I did my websites was because Paul sat me down and forced me to finish them (Still not finished tbh)

Normally this happens because of a mixture of two things: SAD and Boredom. So if I've not been getting enough happy happy sunshine and if I've been stuck in the same routine for too long.

Sounds about right.

However, the issue at the moment is that I can't fix it until i'm out of this hell I call University. I HATE being a student, I fucking hate it! Too much free time for a degree that I don't enjoy. So because I can only work part time at the moment, i'm pretty much stuck in this routine until the end of may.

Sitting out the window can only do so much.

I need a jump start...

So I recently read Twilight...and I totally loved it (I know I know, I read out of spite to prove I would hate it then got sucked in a finished it in 23 hours) I loved everything about it, it's a very well written series and I can see why people love it so much.

HOWEVER....

I just saw the film the other night....Needless to say, I'm a little disappointed. The characters all look nothing like how they were described, throwing me off completely when I'm trying to place them. Tyler is a completely different colour! Alice does not have "Cropped, pixie like hair", Emmet does not have blond shaggy hair while Jasper does. There were only one or two characters that looked exactly the way I pictured them.

I know that it is a completely personal thing and that is the great thing about books in that you can have you're own ideas about what things look like and sound like.

Mind you...James is hot. Really really hot. I'd hit that.

"NO!" my mind screams "I don't want to work today!"

and so I probably won't, since it's half done and I have til the 10th to hand it in. I even arranged a lunch date to get out of working but then my mind caught up with me.

So not a lot really going on with me other than finishing off Uni work, applying for full time jobs and living in Partick. Been away from home for about a month now and I can honestly say i've not been homesick once. I think I had gotten to a stage where I was really ready to leave home and that my mother and I were really getting in each others hair. That house really isn't big enough for two adults living in it. (Well...maybe a couple but certainly not a 21 year old student and her mother)

I feel now that we have time apart that we get on better, because I only now see my mum when I'm in a good mood and happy to face the world, freshly showered and slapped with make-up. Mum has also sad that even though she is missing me she is enjoying spreading her things around and that the house is really hers now (Not to mention she has double the wardrobe space.)

Fending for myself isn't nearly as bad as I thought it would be, even though I still get the "If i lived at home i'd have an extra £250 a month" resentment but it passes quickly. Some people also mentioned that I might find it hard living with my other half for the first time and especially since it was my first time away from home.

Not the case.

I love it. It's strangly reassuring to know that at some point in the day i'll see him. There's none of this "So when will I see you next?" or "Are you coming over to mine tonight or tomorrow?" It actually does just make things easier. I think it helps that we're both quite laid back about the whole thing and we don't see it as a big scary "Step". It was just natural progression really.

So there's been a few things that have really been getting under my skin lately.

There is a line that has been getting thrown at me recently from a number of places and it annoys me in the way that militant feminism annoys me. "Sista's before Mistas" (Or Sisters before Misters if we're speaking properly) it is a play on the popular guy phrase "Bro's before Ho's"  Both meaning, basically, put your friends before your boyfriend or girlfriend.

I understand the idea behind this, I really do. Just because you have a relationship doesn't mean your friends are any less important but the ways its been told, no wait...preached to me is that any time I want to do something with my boyfriend I have to check with my friends to see if we're not doing anything first and if we are then I have to cancle all plans with the boyfriend.

For the past couple of months the reason I havn't been really seeing my friends is NOT, I repeat, NOT because I have a relationship. No, It's because i'm trying to get through this hell I like to call University that I am throwing myself into to make sure I pass!

The truth is, Sisters before misters (Or Bros before hos) just doesn't work. You can't have a healthy functioning relationship with another person if there are in fact more than two of you in the equation. At the end of the day, love your friends as much as you do, when it comes to your relationship there are only two opinions that really matter: Your's and his's.

Another thing that has been annoying me lately are wasters. You know, those people who seem to walk through life either not caring about the fact they still work in HMV/McDonalds/Burger King etc at the age of 25. Or the people who don't study, don't try and just fuck about all through their course and then complain when they have re-sits to do.

These are the people who in their later years (Say 40 years old or so) will be saying "I was never given the right oppertunity!" Or  "Life just wasn't fair on me." Umm...no, Life was fine on you, you went to the same school system that I did and were given probably the exact same oppertunities as me so the only reason you are still working in a dead end job with no qualifications is because of YOU. 

I'm annoyed by this because I go to uni with someone who is pretty much exactly like this. He never turns up for classes, hands stuff in late and fucks around when he is in (Annoying on the odd occasion i'm trying to pay attention.) I'm sorry but if you want something, FUCKING WORK FOR IT THEN!

It makes me sick to think that any tax that I pay in the future will probably go into keeping this guy.

So I've been living away from home for about 2 weeks now and it's been great. I've been really good with my money, I've been eating sensibly and i've been able to go running about 4 times a week. Uni work is due in about a week but I've got most of it done which is a load off my mind, just a few bits to check on my Delphi program and woo i'm done!

Was meant to have folk over last Saturday but Paul and I had a major falling out that I really don't want to go into right now. As far as i'm concerned its done, over and we're a better couple because of it (Funnily enough because Warcraft isn't on his PC anymore...hmmm) So I told Simon and Stoney and told them to tell everyone else, I couldn't even be bothered picking up my phone. I was too drained.

It's funny the little things that you take for granted when you're at home. Like Shampoo, Conditioner, Bodywash, Milk etc. Things that you just expect to be there and suddenly not unless you go out and buy them yourself. Hence why we'd all get very very tetchy when Shona would use our stuff/eat our food without asking!

Speaking of, Jack has finally moved out, taking his annoying attitude and even more annoying GF with him. Don't let the door hit you on the way out fucker! So I now have taken his room firmly in hand and made a little den for myself to hide in when I feel like it. The flat is much less tense since they left, it's nice :)

So all in all things are pretty good, life away from home is great. My mother is having a ball re-arranging everything which is nice for her. So next stop is to pass uni and then holiday :)