current mood: drained
Please don't think this an "Emo" entry, I just really need to write something down because if I don't I might actually go crazy.
I don't enjoy spending all this time alone. Every morning it's the same thing; get up, do a bit of exercise, shower, apply for jobs then spend the rest of the afternoon just sitting around, maybe playing some games. Even that is now starting to get boring.
The days blur together and when someone says "God I can't wait for the weekend!" I think "What's the difference? I'm just going to do the same thing I do every other day." This gives me even less respect for benefit junkies who just sit around on their ass all day not even trying to find a job. I spend at least 3 hours a day job hunting, sometimes going out into town and looking, sometimes going through the papers and S1 Jobs. But I'm still doing it.
If I had uni more than once a week I probably wouldn't be so bored. But I don't, so I am. Helpful that.
Like I said, I'm not enjoying spending every afternoon alone but at the same time I don't really want to see certain people. That would take effort, I'd have to wear something presentable and I'd need to make conversation when I just don't have the energy.
I'm really looking forward to graduating and then going on Holiday to Portugal. I'm looking forward to something different.